The Queen's Confidante is the first to hear the beat of a different drum. Many plunge into the avant garde experience and generally set the trend for their friends. They are more in touch with reality using their senses but this makes them want to live for the ‘here and now’. The Confidante is full of charm and may flow with compliments even if it isn’t deserved.Rather than write a poem on the beauty of life – they would rather live out the written story of beauty.
The Queen’s Confidante is usually peaceful and easygoing in nature. They usually adopt a 'live and let live' approach to life. They take things at their own pace and live for the moment. They may be quiet but are pleasant, considerate and caring. They may not be inclined to debate or air their views, but of course their values are important to them. They will solve problems as they arise especially if it concerns people. Generally the Confidante is one who develops great team spirit through the promotion of cooperation. They will only repeat facts without placing too much spin or interpretation on them. Because of this they may be the best mediators.
The Confidante is sensitive to its environment, and much more perceiving than others with regards to the physical world. They can notice variations in behavior of others. They are highly conscious of companions and friends, but they prefer to let others direct. This ‘Pawn’ is rarer than others because they are emotionally well rounded with a great degree of empathy. Because of this empathy, they can be overly concerned with ‘feelings’. They may even sacrifice their ideals and not contribute enough, especially if they don’t wish to exercise criticism.
For those of you who don't know, I am a Library Assistant with The San Diego Public Library.
So, I was at work today, helping patrons as usual with checking out material and reference questions and such when an old man comes to my desk and asks me about the latest edition of a book by James Agee. He tells me that Agee wrote it a long time ago and it has been revised. He cannot remember the name of the book but knows it has been published very recently. Well, I look up James Agee and find a book that fits the criteria. It was published in 2005 and the man says no, it's more recent than that. We talk further and he decides that I have not found what he is looking for. He says: "I'll ask him (my boss, the Librarian) because he knows everything." Fine. He asks my boss the same question and my boss is not finding it either. Finally, the man says" "The title is something like Praise Famous Men." Since I am sitting very close to where my boss sits, I over hear this. I say: "That's the book I had up on my screen. It was first published in 1948 and the most recent editon was published in 2005. The title is: 'Let Us Now Praise Famous Men ." My boss looks at me and says: "You have it up on your screen now?" Affirmative. The old man moves back over to my desk and says: "Oh, well, I couldn't remember the name and he (my boss) always knows how to help me." I say: " I can help you, too." And the old man says: wait for it......."Well, you're so pretty and you don't expect someone so pretty to be smart, too." YES...he actually said that to my face!!! I was dumbfounded. I told him that wasn't something he should say to a woman in this day and age. He replied, "Well, I come from an older generation so it's OK for me to say that." I simply looked at him and shook my head. I ordered the book for him from another branch.
Just another lovely day at the Ocean Beach Branch Library, where you can find beauty AND brains, thank you very much!!!
I was upstairs visiting my landlord and his family last night. They have the most adorable 19 month old little boy. His name is Zachary. Well, Alyssa, Zachary's mom, told me that Zachary is saying hello to people now. I thought that was so cute and said, "he's just saying hello to arbitrary people?" She looked me in the eye and said, "He used to just stare, and then he started to wave and now he waves and says hello." I looked at her and smiled. She continued. "There aren't any people there." AAOOHH! Zachary sees what I have only been able to hear and feel. We have visitors in our house. I hear them knocking about in my kitchen or brushing past my check with a whoosh. Alyssa appeared calm and collected about the fact that we have visitors in our house. She also doesn't want to discourage Zachary from saying hello. I'm interested to see how this develops. This little boy is absolutely gifted. I have watched him since birth and recognise some of the signs of magick in him. He is an old soul, you can see it in his eyes.
I sincerely hope that someone doesn't tell him that it's just his imagination and there really isn't anything there. Children are so open to everything and their abilities get dismissed or replaced with fear. It would be a shame if Zachary closed the door because of something someone else said or did to discourage him.
Today was Memorial Day and I am just now thinking about the father I never knew. He was a Marine who served in World War II, The Korean War and was awarded two purple hearts. He made it through all the battle and turmoil and terror of war only to be killed by a drunk driver on his way home from work four days before Christmas and a month after JFK was assassinated. He was wearing his Dress Blues at the time.
I have only one conscious memory of him. I was about 9. My sister and I came home from school to find him sitting languidly on the coach while my mother was pacing nervously. She didn't like him. He was an alcoholic and used to yell at her and hit her. Hence the reason I didn't know him. She got rid of him when I was about 5, throwing him out of the house never to return again, except this one time. He also had a girlfriend on the side. He was married to her at the time of his death. He wanted to take us out for ice cream that day but mom wouldn't let him. Never saw or heard from the man again. I was 13 when he died.
I find it ironic that a man who was an alcoholic died at the hands of another who was drunk while he was sober.
Today I went for another massage. On my way to the garage, I decided to stop by the mail box and see if anyone had sent me anything (I love getting mail). About two feet from the mail box, I stopped dead in my tracks. Lying there, minding hir own business was a 5 foot snake. S/he was half in the geraniums and half in the street. Hir head was facing west (and was part of the half in the street) and hir body was resting peacefully, thank you very much. I stood and stared for a few moments and decided it would be wiser to leave hir alone and check the mail later.
Traditionally, the serpent is a symbol of great power indicating change, renewal and transformation. The serpent is also a potent archetype of psychic energy, power, dynamism, instinctual drive and the entire process of psychic and spiritual transformation. They are powerful magickal and mystical creatures. They also have connections to the underworld. There's also the sexuality and sensuality aspect as the snake can represent the phallus and its associations of the life force. S/he is also a universal companion to goddesses and can symbolize the womb, the dark, intuition, emotion and all the aspects of the Great Mother.
I have lived on this property for almost four years. This is the first snake I have seen. This weekend I had three clients come to my house for readings. The readings went very well and two of the three gave me more money than I asked for. I am also feeling different. Something is calling to me and I have yet to figure out what. I want to take my Feri practice to another level. I know there is something I am supposed to be doing with Feri but the specifics aren't clear. I have a great affinity for snakes. The handle of my athame is a serpent wrapped around a skull. I have snake skin in Hecate's and Lilith's offering bowls. Then there's the oroboros that surrounds the pentacle I wore for 15 years and just recently took off in favor of my new rainbow obsidian black heart pendant. I know this snake is a sign!
While I was being massaged, I relaxed into darkness and snakes were in my vision. They were crawling through a hole in my mind's eye. They were beckoning me to follow them down, deep into the darkness. Down a well filled with black water. A voice was singing in the pitch blackness. All I could see were the snakes, all colors, all sizes. Before I could understand where I was being led, the massage was over and Marion's voice snapped me back.
i'm not certain what this all means. Maybe I'll have snake dreams and some answers will be found there. Maybe I'll hear a message on the wind or see symbols in a candle flame. Or maybe the snake I saw today will lift hir head off the pavement and wink at me.
Today I was massaged by an HHP for an hour. My muscles were so tight and sore from all the work, play, sex and exercise I do in my day to day life. Her healing hands massaged oil into my body all the way down to my fingertips and toes. She used acupressure to release tension in my neck, the small of my back, my gluts, my knees and my feet. It felt so very, very good. I relaxed under her touch and felt the soreness leave me. It is amasing how little you realize how much pain you are in until it is gone. I have a high tolerance to pain, which makes it worse.
Finding a good massage therapist is not easy. It is important to have just the right person touching you all over your body. My former massage therapist left in October, so it has been seven months since my last massage. This woman is marvelous. Her name is Marion and she is from France with a lovely French accent. She works at the Myztic Isle in La Mesa. Her touch was perfect and her knowledge was great. She said that, although my muscles were tight, my muscle tone is excellent, my skin is soft and supple with no dryness anywhere, and my skin color is beautiful and healthy. When I told her that I'm 57, she was surprised. She thought I was 48 or 49 tops. That made me feel good! When I left, I was so relaxed I could hardly move and my ability to focus clearly was impaired...a sure sign of a good massage. All this for only $50.